Posted under Life & My Thoughts
My first tooth fell and I was not at all dismay. I was joyous inside! Finally, my first tooth fell off. I will make sure I keep guard of it until night fall to ensure no harm is done to it. As night began crawling in on the sun, I can’t wait to go to bed. I quickly finished dinner and then bathed. Changed into my pajamas and jumped into bed. Lights off and I carefully placed my tooth under the pillow. Then I prayed…
No! No! No! I am having a bloody toothache. Every time I open my mouth a little wider and my jaw starts to ache. How to eat like this? Damn! In normal circumstances, I guess one would have no mood to eat or something like that. But I think I am on the opposite side. I went out this afternoon for the famous Chan Sow Lin Jalan Tiga Fish Head! Every bite was mouth watering and at the same time painfully sustained. Then just about an hour ago I was at the Pasar Malam (night market) and I it was like a food galore feast. I had a burger, fried kuey teow, 2 pieces of fried chicken and a rojak buah. Every bite contains pleasure and pain… how nice if we can subtract the pain any time we like to. First it was flu and then migraine come along, now it’s my darn tooth. This is just not a good beginning.
I guess many of you who are reading this would say I am just torturing myself or something like that. But that this a bit further and you will see that we do tend to torture ourselves but in our own distinct ways. How many times have you done things that every one else told you it was wrong? If you would say yes than you are not alone and I know I am not alone. I knew that anyway…
We have often craved for so many things in our life which we know should not take. One example would be food. We know that fried food are not good for our health but then how many times have you lost control over your cravings?
I know I have done other things such as not studying when I should be, slack in home work, even slack in work now.
It’s actually very contradicting when we look at this matter at hand. It’s actually very clear in our mind and we know that it is a bad thing to us but then we still go ahead in doing it. What is the rationale behind all this? Can any one tell me? I often find myself knowingly what I am doing is wrong but still willfully carrying out the task. I guess at those times the heart rules out the mind, or is it something else… I think I have written down so much stupid irrelevant rubbish here I don’t even know what it means. I guess here’s the thought…
Follow your mind, follow your heart
Which will triumph in the end?
Your mind or your heart?
Only you can decide who triumphs!!!
