Impact Of A Soul To A Soul From A Soul

There seem to be times when everyone, and I do mean everyone, would like to have a change. The poor would definitely would like to have a change to a more decent living, the moderate would like to have a change to be rich, the rich would like a change to be worry free like the day to day lives of the poor and so forth. We would all like a change, and definitely to what we perceive to be of a better life. I am of coz none other than one of the poor to moderate categories, looking for a change. I am this pathetic employee who can’t even earn a decent living to support myself and my parents. You know this thought that you want to give everything good to your parents, yay, but I can’t do it, not with what I’m earning.
But then there is of coz some stuff that we do not wish to change. These would be feelings for our parents, loved ones, family and friends. I do not know bout you all, but I do not wish to change my feelings for my friends as well, as they have accompanied me through my times, though they were never there during my bad times, but that is because no one knows when my times are bad.
I guess the one thing that we would not like to have change, would definitely be the change of heart. I believe we would not like a change of heart especially of our loved ones towards us. A change of heart seems such a small thing, but then the impact can be so huge, it might wipe out our entire world. It is so often that when we have a change of heart, we would say it’s inevitable, but then when we are at the receiving end, it all changed from inevitable to heartless and cruel. I guess anything bad comes to us on the receiving end will always be difficult comprehend.
I guess it’s in our nature that we are protective and definitely selfish. I am guilty of this accusation as well as I have wronged other during my course of living on this ball of rock since I first set foot and started walking. I am definitely not pointing fingers and holding any grudges to those who have wronged me, I never had. I do thing of you every now and then and am thankful that it all happened as those were the sweet memories that have a place in my small little heart. Besides that I do pray hard and wished you happiness truly from the bottom of my heart. As for those whom I have wronged, I do not even deserve your forgiveness, but then I still wish a happy and fulfilled life ahead for you.
I guess we are all subject to change, just like the fine print with the asterisks imprinted on brochures, bills, documents or whatever documents. Who can say and guarantee that they will not change? I know we do hear this especially in dramas and stuff as well as we do use them a lot. I have from my experiences, found out that we have no guarantee on our feelings, our heart. It is a matter of time that our heart will succumb to the ever changing environment and change accordingly. It’s the magnitude of change that we should consider. If there is a big change in magnitude, that is where the dangers arises. This is because such a high magnitude of change will affect every things. A small magnitude of change is normally complimented with the changing environment and normally can be overcome when brought to discussions.
When a change of heart does occur at this magnitude of total change, I guess there is nothing we can do, but to accept it. Definitely it’s never easy to accept things as we do not have control over them. We feel helpless and frustrated, but believe me, when you are facing a heart that has changed, there is basically nothing we can do to reverse the odds, so to speak. As I have tried time and time again, done everything imaginable, it does not help much but got me into more trouble. I have learned from experience and time that we can never change other and neither can we change ourselves. That is the truth, especially if we want to please someone. It never works.
Over the years, I learnt this lesson of letting go, which by the way, is not as easy to do as saying. I have always been able to physically let go, but it’s just so difficult to do it mentally. Letting go does not mean forgetting, but to look back and be thankful that it happened rather than looking back feeling sad and asking why it happened to me. I have found out one of the key elements to me at least is to know the truth. When I know the truth, I would be able to put down the burden eventually. Another element to soothe the soul would be time, the best remedy to a broken heart.

A wish of happiness to all
A sense of sorrow circle in my air
A time to celebrate and be joyful
A mask blissfully hiding
A broken heart hanging in sorrow
A cheerful laughter hiding
A cut deepened in the heart