Posted under Life & My Thoughts & Work
I know I have been silent for a while. There’s no valid excuse as this is my shrine. My shrine where I am suppose to visit and revitalize myself. It has just been impossible for me to relax, especially during this time. I knew she was leaving, but then I never thought about my portfolio, silly me. My portfolio has just double or so to speak tripled. First it was when my backup left where I doubled my portfolio overnight by doing every thing alone. Then now I have just tripled my previously doubled profile when there are no replacements. What a Chinese New Year Ang Pow I got.
I have been busy lately, and for those who noticed, I am mostly away or even not logged on to instant messenger. So sorry for those who were looking for a chat. I am currently engaged with a few things which I must finish before I go for my leave as well as finishing my daily tasks which apparently no one else can do.
I’m not really complaining or whining, but a helping hand is always welcomed. I know this way I will be able to learn more, but it’s going to be a bit stressful when it comes to support. Even now itself I sometimes need to work over 20 hours straight, I just hope that there will never be a day where two different systems go down. If that happens, I can only pray or sell my soul to the devil in order to a cloned me so we can both work 20 hours straight and make sure both systems are up.
I remember during economics classes bout demand and supply, where at a point, we humans would take priority on rest rather on work. I guess I have not reached that point as I still earn so little, but then I do value rest as well. I find that I do not fit in any of the categories I have learnt. I do not know if the syllabus has changed to incorporate a category that I would fit into, but I feel it’s just tiring. Working day and night continuously, cracking my brains to solve issues, scratching my head to baldness, forcing my body to work, straining my eyes to look at the screens, etc.
Is it worth it? I do not know, but I know if I do not, it’s the end to my material satisfaction (not that I have much) or even the end to my essentials and necessities.
I guess I will be stuck with this for sometime, but then looking at it, it’s my chance to enhance my knowledge and to prove myself. I guess this is going to be tough as it will be draining me dry like being sucked dry by a vampire, but then if I make it, this will be a golden opportunity for me to expose myself to a new environment and juggling between both job scope will be invaluable.
So wish me luck, as this red packet is not easy to come by. It does seem bad to me but then I would like to think of it in a different light. This could be the thing I have been waiting for. Waiting for…
devilfrmheaven on 21 Jan 2006 at 17:41:37 028 #
getting a red packet as a kid means nothing. getting a red packet when you’ve grown up comes with a price.
zeroimpact on 23 Jan 2006 at 19:11:36 091 #
Yes, sometimes it’s a price we are not willing to pay too.
devilfrmheaven on 23 Jan 2006 at 23:52:41 286 #
of course! many a times, we get what we don’t want or wish what we won’t get.
ah sim on 24 Jan 2006 at 09:51:23 702 #
mmmm…… tats life n let’s make it fuller with more positive thinking my dear! cheer up cheer up n pls take good care of urself since CNY is around the corner.
zeroimpact on 25 Jan 2006 at 22:02:38 210 #
Devil
I guess that is part of life’s journey, let there be light and strength for moving forward, to all…
Ah Sim
I will take your advise, nothing beats a good challenge to prove myself and of coz nothing to deter me from a good holiday. Thanks, take care too dear