Posted under Anger & Life & Me & Rants
You know… I have kind of found solitary in Starbucks. I was hesitant actually at first, but then I decided to do so anyway. I have always been reading when I was younger… you know when you were like still in primary and may be some of you even in secondary. I was still reading even though when I graduated… but then I don’t know why it was kind of killed. May be there was another force in me that murders my reading habits. I realized that these few visits to Starbucks in BTS, I will always go to the magazines section even though I knew I would not buy as the magazines that I want, I have already bought them. However today it was weirder, I was not only browsing through the magazine section but I was looking at some books! I have not done this for so long, so freaking long!
I remembered reading stories like 20000 leagues under the sea, Sidney Sheldon’s novels, Hardy boys and I don’t think I remember the rest. They were like so interesting. I liked 20000 league under the sea which I read multiple times and I could only afford the paperback mini version of it at that time. The story was so interesting that I would not even put down the book if I can. I so wanted to take that journey deep under. Is there someone out there… who can take me on this journey. I want to get away, a holiday of adventure would do me good. But seriously, I believe nothing beats the imagination so try to read the book and imagine, not watch the movie.
Yes! I am once again at Starbucks… which I believe could be my church in the coming days, weeks, month or even years to come. That is if I would still have a laptop sitting here, but then again I believe without it also I may still find solitary here. Sometimes I am just puzzled… may be you don’t see eye to eye with me. May be I’m just stupid. May be I am just not worth it.
This is crap… I am sitting here now being bombarded by questions after questions. What do I have to do to tell you it’s not what you think? I am explaining but do you listen… NOOOO. You just say whatever you want and then what… you expect everything to be like that. I am a toy is it. Ok fine… I know stupid or impossible sometimes. This is all crap. This is all sick. I am only human. I do the things I do best. I have my principles. I have a life too.
When I say something I really mean it. When I do some thing I really mean it too. I am just like you. I also have feelings. I am seriously not feeling well now. I don’t know what is happening here. I cannot comprehend. I cannot comprehend. Walk out on me… leave me alone.
I should leave this place… now
Chen on 17 Jul 2006 at 22:29:01 186 #
I love reading during my younger days.. Nowadays I still read but not as much as those days
I guess if I open a book, most likely it’s medical related books.. boring huh?
Seems like you are troubled.. Whatever problems u are facing now, I hope u can handle it and don’t get depressed… Whatever it is, life still goes on..
Kyels on 17 Jul 2006 at 22:56:53 206 #
Well, do not let your problems pull you down matey. I am here as a pillar. Need I say more? I am sure you’d understand what I mean. Oftentimes I may be silent but I do comprehend what you are feeling because I do feel that way too — most of the time.
Just relax and chill and things will be fine for you again — I believe.
Do take care and find solitary in things that you do and sometimes desolation helps.
(:
*huggles*
zeroimpact on 17 Jul 2006 at 23:36:48 233 #
Chen
Reading, be it medical or story should be cultivated
Struggling is the only word I can say right now
zeroimpact on 17 Jul 2006 at 23:38:30 235 #
Kyels
*big big huggies*
Long island tea and pinacolada for you…
Cheers
Kyels on 18 Jul 2006 at 00:16:47 261 #
Pina Colada! I miss it.
One day we go for coffee session. This I promise you!
(:
zeroimpact on 18 Jul 2006 at 00:58:28 290 #
Kyels
And we shall… very soon
bunnywunny on 19 Jul 2006 at 02:55:17 371 #
I’m not sure if a church would be flattered at the comparison to Starbucks, but I’m sure Starbucks would be
You sound like you’re in a really introspective mood. A different flavour from your previous mostly feelgood/humourous posts, but an interesting deviation nonetheless.
zeroimpact on 19 Jul 2006 at 10:06:37 671 #
bunnywunny
I guess these days do come… to everyone
There’s no comparison to begin with… we all run to different places…
Glad it was still interesting