Posted under Anger & Fear & Life & Me & My Thoughts & Rants
I sleep a little pass 5 earlier today after a hang out session earlier but then again I am wide awake not even 9. This is like so fun, but then the lack of sleep, splitting head and tired eyes are just bugging me. It’s like I’m suppose to rest and sleep and less than 4 hours is like deadly or some what not so suitable. The night was great and the partners in crime… I could never doubt their existence which made me feel comfortable and most of all, I could feel myself. Though I could not feel myself but then I did. I am really grateful to have companions as such… it’s like I’m satisfied, and being taken away forever does not even matter at all.
I have been crazy lately… my mind insane mad… my body battered. And all of this thanks to my own hands. It’s covered with blood and it stains. There’s nothing one can do to us but if we let them and to do unto ourselves and it’s inexcusable.
It’s easy to give advice but then when it comes back to ourselves it’s like so strange and we can’t comprehend. It’s just so ironic. You know it’s like how can you help when you can’t be helped. I simply touched my forehead, it’s burning. My body too.
It’s been countless times, I just don’t feel myself, I really don’t. The recollection of thoughts, haunts me and killed me. I’m glad there’s been support behind me and I am really honoured to be your support. I’m glad that you can all stand up on your feet. I’m really glad and I smiled.
Listened to Truly Madly Deeply…
Head is splitting again…
Eyes… you know, you get what I mean
I wonder what it feels like… leaving on a plane, a jet plane
Julee on 05 Aug 2006 at 18:11:46 008 #
It was one ‘kegilaan yang terlampau”… LOL
We were all crazy last night, dont know what got into me.
Try to chill again tonight.. hugs.
Kyels on 05 Aug 2006 at 19:09:27 048 #
Well, it was good chillin’ out with you guys. Really. Took my mind off certain things.
(:
Ayie on 05 Aug 2006 at 22:49:41 201 #
I hope that everything’s gonna be alright soon. Thanks for visiting my blog by the way!
Keep safe.
zeroimpact on 06 Aug 2006 at 20:43:57 113 #
Julee
Gila gila is my name already
Glad you had a good time!
zeroimpact on 06 Aug 2006 at 20:44:54 114 #
Kyels
It was a great night and glad you enjoyed it!
zeroimpact on 06 Aug 2006 at 20:46:36 115 #
Ayie
Thanks
You’re welcome and thanks for coming here
bunny on 07 Aug 2006 at 01:27:32 310 #
Hmm. Reminds me of the clown who made everyone laugh but cried inside, the performer who entertained everyone else except himself. I hope I’m reading it all wrong, the pillar who supported everyone but was secretly crumbling. And that the reality isn’t as sad as it sounds to me.
zeroimpact on 07 Aug 2006 at 08:38:00 609 #
bunny
No one ever knows what the clown feels other then how he makes others feel
Even the strongest pillar that supports others need some refurbishment at times
Though it will never ask for one
happysurfer on 08 Aug 2006 at 16:23:20 932 #
Stay well and grounded. Best wishes.
zeroimpact on 08 Aug 2006 at 17:19:18 971 #
happysurfer
Thanks… you have been so kind