Impact Of A Soul To A Soul From A Soul

Saw this over at happysurfer’s place and thought I’d give it a try, just for fun. After some question and answers… below are the results. If you’d like to play just go to the site.

You Are Mint Green

Balanced and calm, you have mastered the philosophy of living well. Your friends seek you out for support, and you are able to bring stability to chaotic situations. You’re very open and cheerful - and you feel like you have a lot of freedom in life. Your future may hold any number of exciting things, and you’re ready for all of them!

I just had nothing to do and thought that I’d try this out and amuse myself or may be some of you out there. No… it’s just so hard to please people nowadays.

Mint… I like mint actually. I can have mint tea, mint coffee, mint chocolates, mint sweets, basically anything mint is ok with me. I like the fresh cooling taste of mind a lot too. It just refreshes and clears the airways if you know what I mean

Oh… I guess a mint fresh kiss is more of my flavour apart from sweet ones

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First of all let me thank of you for your concern over steed and it is very much appreciated. I brought steed for a check up yesterday afternoon as the condition was bad and it worsened until it reached the clinic. Though I made it drank another liter of water, by the time I reached, it’s totally dehydrated again and we suspected a leakage as liquid was being dripping to the floor like an unfastened tap, underneath the body.

We tried to cool it down with lots of water, but it seems that it will take some time and more water to do the job. So we patiently waited while giving it water, bit by bit. Soon, we managed to cool down steed and then we tried to diagnose the problem and a few assumptions came to mind. Finally we got steed back to normal, it was really great to know that steed is past critical stage but then a lot of monitoring and care will have to be taken to ensure that steed in fine. So now on it’s monitoring its condition.

Now, don’ get me wrong, that is not my steed and I don’t think I’ll be driving any such machine in the near future too.

Apart from that… look what I bumped into while my steed got its treatment and diagnostics done. A brand new BMW Petronas F1 race car, noticed that the wheels still has plastic covers. This baby is so brand new that it’s not even touched the race tracks yet. I was less than a meter from it, though I’m not a fan of F1, but that is watching speeding car, and this is using my eyeballs admiring a piece of finely crafted machine. See the difference?

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Now that I am back, and in a better condition… steed’s having some hiccup. I did not notice at all this morning that it’s temperature was rising. Until I found out, it was already a bit too late. It’s temperature rose to a whooping 120 degree Celsius and mind you that is bad.

I had to make a pit stop at the road side to see what was happening and apparently it’s dehydrated. I’m still looking for the reason to it as steed has been like a camel. It can keep cool and hydrated for months and years, so to speak.

I had to get to the office but then after that, it seems that steed decided to make its own pit stop in the middle of the road, imagine my horror. The bustling morning traffic and then you see steed not moving in the middle of the road. I believe Steed’s fever had worsened and I had to wait for a few minutes before it can cool down to enable me to kick start and move again. This happened three times. So folks… if you happen to be obstructed by steed for a while… my apologies.

Now I’m not making any assumptions yet, and will make a call to one of its regular doctors to see if I could get more information on this matter. Then will have to make an appointment later today to steed can have checkup and of coz to heal him in the process too.

This is a start of a long day and week I think. Now, I need to finish up some work before I take time to check out my beloved steed. I hope it’s nothing serious.

You’ll be alright steed, you’ll be alright.

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Hey everybody… I’m bacccccckkkkkk! Well not one hundred percent yet but recovery to hundred percent is very near…

Thanks to all of you for your advices and I will keep all of them if I need them later. Thanks to all of you with your kind words and advice, I manage through a week full of pills and cough syrups. The dizziness and drowsiness will pass, no doubt.

Well, as a gesture of my thanks here I present to you all an instrumental piece by Bond called lullaby.

Click here… to listen to the song (Bond – Lullaby)

This is a variation of a tune that I like very much. Can you guess it… tell me if you can. I love this tune a lot and of coz a loop of this song can come to hours too.
Enjoy!

Hold on sugar… daddy’s bacccccckkkkkk!

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Click here… to listen to the song.

Song – Everytime You Go Away
Artist – Paul Young

Hey! If we can solve any problem
Then why do we lose so many tears
Oh, and so you go again
When the leading man appears
Always the same thing
Can’t you see, we’ve got everything going on and on and on
Every time you go away you take a piece of me with you
Every time you go away you take a piece of me with you
Go on and go free, yeah
Maybe you’re too close to see
I can feel your body move
It doesn’t mean that much to me
I can’t go on saying the same thing
Just can’t you see, we’ve got everything do you even know we know
Every time you go away you take a piece of me with you, oh
Every time you go away you take a piece of me with you
I can’t go on saying the same thing
‘Cause baby, can’t ya see, we’ve got everything going on and on and on
Every time you go away you take a piece of me with you
Every time you go away you take a piece of me with you

This song is a classic to me. I can listen to this song and loop this as long as I am alive. This song can apply to so many circumstances as well as situations.

The song speaks of how the heart aches everytime the person loved leaves. It’s like when they leave us they take away a piece of our precious heart… a piece that ensure the scar will remain. This may happen to most of us… sometimes even if the person is only gone for a while, because of work or some valid reasons, but still there is pain when they are not near.

I think the cough syrup is kicking in again. I make no sense again.

Pieces of me
Taken away
As you leave me
Everytime our realtionship sway

Everytime you go away
You take a piece of me away
Leaving me in sorrow
Leaving me in vain

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Click Here… to listen to the song

Song – Unfaithful
Artist – Rihanna

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
cause it seems that wrong
really loves my company

He’s more than a man
and this is more than love
the reason that this sky is blue
the clouds are rolling in
because I’m gone again
and to him I just can’t be true

and I know that he knows I’m unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don’t wanna do this anymore
I don’t wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don’t wanna hurt him anymore
I don’t wanna take away his life
I don’t wanna be…
a murderer

I feel it in the air
as I’m doing my hair
preparing for another day
A kiss up on my cheek
He’s here reluctantly
as if I’m gonna be out late
I say I won’t be long
Just hanging with the girls
A lie I didn’t have to tell
Because we both know
where I’m about to go
and we know it very well

cause I know that he knows I’m unfaithful
and it kills him inside
to know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dying

I don’t wanna do this anymore
I don’t wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don’t wanna hurt him anymore
I don’t wanna take away his life
I don’t wanna be…
a murderer

His trust
I might as well take a gun and put it to his head
Get it over with
I don’t wanna do this
Anymore (anymore)

I don’t wanna do this anymore
I don’t wanna be the reason why
Every time I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don’t wanna hurt him anymore
I don’t wanna take away his life
I don’t wanna be…
a murderer (a murderer)

No no no no
Yeah yeah yeah

This song has been playing in my mind during this period of time when I was sick. The song is somewhat different. If you read between the lyrics you would know what I mean.

The song is a depiction of a contradiction of selfishness and selflessness. Depending on how you see things. The truth is there and if you notice, it happens like day in and day out, just not talked about or not taken seriously.

The relation when I get when I listen to the song is of selfishness and selflessness all bundled in one. It’s like mixed together, but then again how can you mix two extreme trait together, feelings may still be acceptable but still not common at all. The song really brings out something that I really feel strongly.

It’s like loving someone and wanting them for yourself, but then again, you give them the choice to leave. Sounds selfless? Or is it pure selfishness. I don’t make much sense here… could be that my brains is still a bit dead due to overdose of cough syrup.

However this song, it really seeps into my mind and slowly into my heart. A murderer, a murderer of the soul and not the body.

I think I have looped the song for about 3 to 4 hours now… the same song repeatedly…

A murderer
A soul killer
Take me away
Sucked my soul away

I’m staying
I’m waiting
For your move
For your love

Hurting inside
Not revealed outside
Hoping for the better
Or victim of a murderer

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Prometheus made a curse and I think I better comply…
Not that it’s the curse but it’s to kill time and brain cells
The battle is still going on so this will have to do for this time
Let’s hope the biological weapon the doctor is going to give me tomorrow will be a blast, may be like the nuclear bomb.
Till then…

• What is the best thing about my workplace?
I work with lots of great people and I love them, well not all of them

• What do I hate about my workplace?
Food is far… need to cross oceans and climb hills for a good meal

• What small irritants at my workplace really annoy me?
I have to listen to the same song every morning and afternoon… annoying… ANNOYING…

• Describe the actions/quirks of the weirdest person I work with (can be a co-worker, employer, or a vendor if you are self employed)
Weirdest… I think it should be me, blasting Nightwish, heavy metal, dance music, pop rock, oldies whenever I want to even though my big boss sits next to me… muahahaha

• What is one thing that I would change at my workplace to make life a helluva lot better?
A live band, a bar, a bed, oh just renovate it to be a home with a concert hall, fat chance…

• Pick five songs that I’d like played at my funeral……
Five songs for my funeral… well actually I can’t find much on songs that I’d like to be played during this event. May be a concert or dance and techno music would do. I’d like people to enjoy and be happy, not think back and be sad. So dance and sing to a concert…

No tagging and of coz there’s no curse on this as was in Prometheus’s post. Feel free to do this if you like to… I’d be glad to know more about you.

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You know… I have not really recovered from my physical illness. My natural antibiotics have been fighting hard and even with the aid of new age technological weapons, it proves to no avail. The primitive invader armed with I don’t know what, still seems to have the upper hand in this battle.

But then bear in mind… the battle is not lost yet. I do not give up… or so to speak it’s not for me to give up as I know I will win this, it’s just time and the suffering. A marathon nose running for days is no funny business I tell you.

Well the first strike was not successful, therefore I shall be looking for strike two most probably tomorrow. With this I hope that it will end this battle restoring peace for my fellow fighters…

In the midst of this tiresome battle, there’s something that crossed my mind, rendering the battle to the size of a peanut if not smaller. I was able to do almost anything that I used to actually everything if I do not take into account of getting others sick with my presence, yes I can do anything just like before, before the start of this battle.

However I find something missing… I yearned for something. Being taken cared of… being concerned over. Now, I do appreciate all the get well and feel better messages, but this is just something different. It’s just unexplainable at this point of time, it’s like there’s something missing.

I’d like to thank all of you for wishing me well on my battle and bunny for the chicken soup. I’d like to thanks someone for surprising me just to hear my voice. You made me jumped like a kid, a real happy kid.

Now, I need to conclude my day and indulge into the drowsiness of cough syrup again, the remaining of my ammunition. I’ll be replenishing my firearms tomorrow hopefully and end this battle as soon as possible. In the meantime, I’m hoping to get some sleep with the drowsiness for tonight.

With all this going on
I think there’s something missing
My heart yearns for care
My heart yearns for someone

May be
Just may be
I am missing something
I am truly missing someone

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This time, tagged by Lizza, and the task… to reveal nine weird things about myself. Now here I go…

• Some of you may have known this already… I love plush toys and soft toys. I do not keep count of them, but I guess it will be no less than 50 pieces but I don’t think it exceeds 100 pieces at the moment yet too.
• I have my name tagged to at least five distinct mobile number and all five are single and not supplementary numbers. These are only mobile numbers and I believe that I have used almost all the mobile network provider that there is in my country
• I listen to all kinds of songs and music, be it from oldies to the new funk and rap or the mellow and sweet love songs to the noisy electrical instruments of heavy metal or classical pieces to the new age instrumental pieces of today… hit me with anything and I’d listen to it
• I can do absolutely nothing even eat when I get hooked up with my beloved PS2 and it can go on to more than 18 hours straight, staring in to the screen, exercising only the fingers, with no food or water… of coz until the nagging and hitting of broomstick from family members and sometimes the yelling breaks the silence too
• When I eat at home… I choose my own utensil. I only eat from paired utensil and of certain kinds only. It’s like the right pair of chopsticks that matches each other and not from any two pieces and it goes for fork and spoon too. Any tow different pieces of fork and spoon just would not do.
• I have a weird habit of eating… I like spicy but I don’t eat chilies, I don’t eat ginger but like the taste it adds to food, I only eat onions raw, I don’t take soy sauce at all. Last time I will not take if I see anyone using it in front of me, I still do, but then now if I don’t see I ignore… just don’t really like the smell and the salty taste. People around me will say “you are weird” when they eat with me.
• I like my hair to be soft and silky. I wash and condition my hair everyday even when it is long to my back. I don’t do this that often anymore. Now I still wash everyday but conditions it may be once in 2 weeks.
• I hate anything bitter… such as bitter gourd, bitter drinks. Basically anything bitter would not be in my list of like. However beer has been an addition of late… though bitter, but when drank in cold is great. But any other temperature than ice cold is a no for me.
• I love wasabe, the Japanese green little devil. I never mix it up with soy sauce and I like it to go with my sushi in bulk. I love the way it unclogs my breathing and sends tears brimming around my eyes. One good way to cleanse my system. One word of caution though… don’t talk to me when I take this… may turn green and ruin my clothes leaving only pants on…

Well, that is nine weird things about me. Not sure they sound weird to you or not, but sometimes I sound and do weird things that even puzzles myself. Now I have to tag nine people and well, as depicted, I will tag nine people this time. This is another weird thing about me too.

So now, the weird things I’d like to hear are from…

Pink Cotton
Chen
angel
Selba
redsponge
butt
or2ng3s
Winn
Jemima

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“A refugee is a person who, owing to a well-founded fear of being persecuted for reasons of race, religion, nationality, membership of a particular social group or political opinion, is outside the country of his nationality and is unable or, owing to such fear, unwilling to avail himself of the protection of that country.” – 1951 Convention Relating to the Status of Refugees, Article 1(a)(2) – Rita Aziz.

World Refugee Day is on 20th June and is celebrated every year. This year’s theme is hope – Keeping the flame of hope alive. Well this may have passed like months ago as we move in to the new year but this actually stuck in my mind for quite some time. I read about this in the August issue of Chip Photo-video magazine.

The photographer that was commissioned by the United Nations High Commissioner for Refugees (UNHCR) this year was Sarah Hoibak and the title of this year’s exhibition is “Making the Invisible, Visible. A Glimpse of Urban Refugees in Malaysia”.

In Malaysia there are about 46,000 refugees registered by the UNCHR. Majority of them are from the Indonesian province of Aceh and Northern Rakhine State and other areas in Myanmar as well as other countries. They live among us in low-cost apartments, urban villages or housing estates as there are no refugee camps in Malaysia. However they do not have access to legal employment and public education system. They are often mistaken for being a migrant. The only difference is that refugees do not choose to leave their countries; they are compelled to do so because of difficult living conditions in their countries such as armed conflict, serious public disorder and complex human rights issues, rather than the economic migrant.

The article explains all these and so does the exhibition online. The article shed light of this matter to me as I never knew of this matter or in depth. These refugees though being far away from their families and homeland show extraordinary courage and will power. There is one line in the article depicted from “Face to Face: Confronting the Humanity of Refugees in Malaysia by Bernice Chauly and UNCHR, it is a testimony from one of the refugees

We don’t want charity, we don’t want to beg for help. Let us work and we will take care of ourselves

We have often looked at things from one perspective and we seldom see it in another light. The thing is, we always tend to judge ever so quickly when we are faced with something or even someone. The fact that there are refugees means that we as humans are still not living in harmony and peace. I believe that the refugees themselves, even though being in a foreign country with limited resources and away from everything dear to them, they would still like to stand on their own feet and make things meet.

The will power in them is so great that we should learn from them. They are living in such harsh conditions, both physically and emotionally but then, they keep their fingers crossed and hopes for the better everyday, day by day, working their way through it.

I truly salute them for their courage and their will to survive. I hope that I will have that courage and will power too, not that I hope to be a refugee, but it proofs to be a trade we should all carry in us, don’t you think so.

Take a look at some of the photographs taken by Sarah Hoibak in the link below. Some of them really touched me and explains in a visual view of what they are going through. Despite of all that, there is still an air of hope and what can I say… the photographs say it all.

Exhibition: Making the Invisible, Visible: A Glimpse of Urban Refugees in Malaysia – In Commemoration of World Refugee Day by Sarah Hoibak

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