Impact Of A Soul To A Soul From A Soul

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Song – Balisong
Artists – Rivermaya

Your face lights up the sky on the highway.
Someday, you’ll share your world with me someday.
You mesmerize me with diamond eyes;
I try to fool myself to think I’ll be alright.
But I am losing all control -
My mind, my heart, my body and my soul

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody’s made me feel this way before;
You’re everything I wanted and more.

To speak or not to; where to begin.
Your great dilemmas I’m finding myself in.
For all I know you only see me as a friend.
I try to tell myself wake up fool; this fairy tale’s got to end.

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody’s made me feel this way before;
You’re everything I wanted

Never in my life have I been more sure,
So come on up to me and close the door.
Nobody’s made me feel this way before;
You’re everything I wanted more

You’re everything I wanted

I have been sick and well things did not really go as expected. Well for me at least. During my drowsiness with medication, this MTV popped up on the television screen. The song consist of mainly three parts the piano, drums and the guitars. It gives three different feel to the song from the melodic and romantic piano till the hyped up guitars.

The song has very beautiful lyrics and if you manage to catch the MTV, it’s set in a backstage kind of setting. Just like the song suggests, I’m losing control, my mind, my heart, my body and my soul. I think I’ll be retreating from reality for a while. Come and close the door as you leave.

I’d like to thank all of you for being here and there for me. The wrongs that I have done did not deter your care. I apologize for the wrongs for I cannot change it no matter what.

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Song – I Hate Myself For Loving You
Artists – Joan Jett

Midnight getting uptight where are you
You said you’d meet me now it’s quarter to two
I know I’m hanging but I’m still wanting you

Hey Jack It’s a fact they’re talking in town
I turn my back and you’re messing around
I’m not really jealous don’t like looking like a clown

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart and you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can’t break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that’s why
I hate myself for loving you

Daylight spent the night without you
But I’ve been dreaming bout the loving you do
I won’t be as angry bout the hell you put me through

Hey man betcha you can treat me right
You just don’t know what you was missing last night
I wanna see you begging say forget it just for spite

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can’t break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that’s why
I hate myself for loving you

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can’t break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that’s why
I hate myself for loving you

I hate myself for loving you
Can’t break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that’s why
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you

This song is a little bit rock and heavy but quite energizing. The words are not alien, though whichever way it may go and turn. I have been annoying or annoyed or whatever it is. I just did not feel right with a lot of things and people of late, for whatever reason that I could not think of as well.

Yes, it’s stupid, and for someone who believes in smiling to everyone to make everyone happy. I’m failing in a lot of things that I believe in. to instill faith and believe we have to believe and have faith. To give care and happiness we must be happy and caring. I seem to be losing all these qualities or seems wanting to lose it.

Damn, I hate myself!!!

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You Are a Dreaming Soul

Your vivid emotions and imagination takes you away from this worldSo much so that you tend to live in your head most of the time You have great dreams and ambitions that could be the envy of all… But for you, following through with your dreams is a bit difficultYou are charming, endearing, and people tend to love you. Forgiving and tolerant, you see the world through rose colored glasses. Underneath it all, you have a ton of passion that you hide from others. Always hopeful, you tend to expect positive outcomes in your life. Souls you are most compatible with: Newborn Soul, Prophet Soul, and Traveler Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

I find it difficult not to do this. This is what they say of my soul. What bout your soul?

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Your Personality is Somewhat Rare (ENFP)

Your personality type is enthusiastic, giving, cautious, and loyal.Only about 8% of all people have your personality, including 9% of all women and 6% of all menYou are Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, and Perceiving.

How Rare Is Your Personality?

Seen this over at beetrice and decided to try it out for fun.

Do you think I have a rare personality?

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Wow! I was the earliest in the office today. I’m not sure if it’s the whole company except the guards but am certainly the earliest in my division. I always wondered what it would be like to be earliest, to switch on the lights and to see if the office space is as spooky as it is in the middle of the night. Seems that its better in the early morning than the dead of the night, at least the office is kind of lit up by the faint light from the big windows.

I kind of like the atmosphere, fairly lighted and serene. May be that would be another reason for me to reach the office early. These few days is not really good for I have been shot down by flu and cold. Dizziness is in the air whenever I take the cough syrup and I think I’m liking it, but I forgot to bring my medicine to work today so I think I will not be so dizzy after all.

And as for my appraisal, thanks to all of you and your support, I believe I aced it, really well. Thanks again. Oh, by the way, if you are wondering, I reached the office today at seven in the morning.

Have a great weekend ahead and for those who took leave, have a great holiday ahead of you. If you are driving afar or going afar, have a safe trip.

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The Qing Ming festival is a yearly event, as I described before. Well, what I want to tell today is something I truly feel strongly, but I could never do it to perfection. I am a person that deals fairly well with death and such, that is I do not go all berserk and asks you to stop talking bout it. To me, it will come either sooner or later, but which I doubt I can take it this easily too when it comes.

We bought a couple’s Urn place for my parents, near to our grandparents so our parents will be able to rest with them at least at the same location, which is Nirvana. In the process of all these, we were taken to the many expensive lands which was bought and duly renovated. They cost more than a detached house in town, I would say, in terms of millions. What caught my attention is something else, a guy, in his twenties and furthest would be just below thirty.

He goes to Nirvana Memorial park as often as twice a week or more regular, I can’t really remember. Some may say he is crazy going to the cemetery so often. He visits his girlfriend, which he bought an urn place for in the same room where my grandparents and eventually my parents will be. Accordingly, he lost his girlfriend to cancer and since then, he has been there very often, going to the cemetery, just chatting with her.

I imagined him, to have care for her and love her so very much. Which is what we should all do? We should learn to love and care for them when they are around, not when they are not. And even when it comes to that, we do it once a year, in the Chinese community.

I believe that many have lost the tradition as they just do as they are told without knowing the meaning of it, especially the younger generations, me included. I often wonder, why can’t we do it anytime we want to, as many times as we want to? Why do we need to wait till the season to do it?

I salute the guy, for his love, and envy his girlfriend. I wonder how many can even come close to him.

How strong is your heart?
How strong is your love?
How strong are you?

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It was a Sunday. It’s an annual event with some arguments and stuffs like that the day or days before but it will all fade on the day itself. We normally make our journey in the late morning, but this year was bout noon. I, as always will drive, as with almost all family occasions.

The drive to Nirvana Memorial in Semenyih jam packed with cars as this is the season to visit those departed. It took quite some time to get there and perform the age old traditions in a more modernized way.

We used to tread along the sides of the hill, up and down and around graves just to get to my grandparent’s graves. Those were the time, distant memories. This year, somehow I felt different, may be I was different. I just did not felt myself starting the day before until it all ended.

During my visit, I could see some were actually having a picnic there. There was food enough to keep a family of 5 from hunger free for a week or two. However said that, it seemed that the cemetery no longer posed the eerie feelings, even children.

I noticed this girl in her teens, wearing dark blue jeans, which has beads sewn to its back pockets, with a white tee and an Adidas white cap. She was caught my attention in particular, but I do not really know why. She had thick lips, and her long hair pony tailed from the cap. Reminds me of myself when I used to do that too. Along side her there was a twin sister and also a younger sister.

The ordeal was not so bad, apart from a fool whom set an innocent tree on fire and fled pretending nothing happened, as well as inconsiderate and illiterate idiots that brought and lighted fire crackers when it is clearly informed not only by the government as well as the management with big banners to not do it. I know it’s tradition, but then we still can live without it, and especially without summons and jail terms if caught or injuries or death.

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When I saw her name in the email from that I got from Alexis, I know that my weekend would be spent there. Eventually I booked a table on both Friday and Saturday, to see her perform, but then I only managed to go on Saturday only. She released her album earlier in February entitled “For Real” and of coz I can’t miss this chance to grab her album and pestered for a signature on the CD like I did the last time.

It was her first full performance since the launch of her album and like always, it was a blast. This time I sat real close right in front, the first row from the stage. It was the ordinary two set performance with her powerful vocals and meaningful lyrics.

The song that was performed was from both her previous and latest album as well as some other songs by other artists. Those songs are “Destiny’s Calling”, “Ordinary World”, “Beautiful Lies”, “Mencintaimu”, “Only In The Dark”, “Desperado”, “For Once In My Life”, “Leading Change”, “All This Time”, “Because Of You”, “Walking Again”, “Teman Sejati”, “What’s On Your Mind”, “Walk Away”, “I Feel The Earth Move” and few more which I could not recall the name. Oh, and there was birthday dedications too and when she sang the birthday song, I over heard a remark that it sounds so beautiful when she sings it, no doubt about it.

The band consist of the Alena Tan on piano, Mozad on base, Wagner on drums, Andrew Lau on Guitar and another guitarist which I could not remember his name for he is new to the band, well at least from the last performance that I went to. A remarkable band and of coz Juwita is very friendly. However I did not stay till late which I normally do, one reason being gulping a bottle of wine alone does not really make me any less drowsy as sleeping time draws near.

It was a really great performance and well, my dear waiter cut his hair short, he used to have very long hair, longer than mine. Well, thanks Ted, it’s nice to see you again and your service and other are always good. Next week is Sharizan Borhan, a jazz and swing singer, on the 20th and 21st. I wonder if I’d be there again.

Well, I did not go for Sharizan’s gig, which I’m sure it’s a good one. Dinners on both day so that’s why I did not manage to go.

I love music
My soul loves music

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Oh my, my boss gave me a few pieces of paper today and it read “Performance Appraisal”. Well, at first I thought it’s though yearly or half yearly or quarterly performance reviews so I asked my colleague. It turns out that this is the key to my staying in the company. It’s the end of my probation and this is to gauge how well I have done for, well, the past almost six months. Has it been that long?

I just finished it and well, will hand it in to see how I have been doing.

How time flies

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Let’s bow down for a moment of silence for the victims of the tragedy.

*bows head*

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