Impact Of A Soul To A Soul From A Soul

My whole torso is in pain. The second time that I know of. I think I need to rest. I will honour and remember my words.

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I was at one of my favourite place tonight after a cup of hot chocolate at Starbucks. Having pizza and my long island tea high above the ground beside the pool. It was heaven for me. It’s been so long since I could sit and relax at this particular place. They say the higher you go the harder you fall. This place is high and of coz falling is fatal, but then again who’d be that stupid to not know that.

It was really great to relax today and have a chat with one of my friends. I love the time spent, it was really nice and relaxing and I actually missed the sight of the place I was, high above the ground. The cocktails were so much better and tastes good alcohol, unlike the so many diluted outlets out there. My favourite place up in the sky.

However sometimes I wonder how things can be compromised. Just a text and a phone call can ruin everything good, well at least the memories of the night. My head hangs heavily from the abuse to my body while my soul wounded from my cell.

I think I shall just turn around and leave this lappie, lie down and faint to sleep. I think I’m near that stage, yes very near. What a bad killer.

No assumptions. Thanks.

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Sometimes I think you are unreasonable
Sometimes I think you are inconsiderate
Sometimes I think you are impossible

Now I think I’m unreasonable
Now I think I’m inconsiderate
Now I think I’m impossible

Me and you
Table’s turned
Who’s wrong
Who’s right

I’m sad
I’m content
I’m confused
I’m having migraine

I can’t wait to end the week
At least there’s some fun waiting
Krazy moments to cherish
Time off from insanity

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Song – Right Here Waiting (Live)
Artist – Richard Marx

Ocean’s apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn’t stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can’t get near you now

Oh, can’t you see it baby
You’ve got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I’m with you
I’ll take the chance

Oh, can’t you see it baby
You’ve got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

A song that I’ve heard over and over again. I’m not sure if this song is familiar to you at all, I think this song is quite long ago.

The lyrics says it all, what I feel at this very moment. No, I’m not sure. I am confused. Do not ask me for I have no answers. I do not have answers. Fly me to the moon. Fly with me. If you only knew. How do I live without you. my heart will go on.

Right here waiting for you
How my heart breaks
Right here waiting
For YOU

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Today was not as busy as I imagined
Pleasant surprises caught me off guard
Feeling top of the world
A midnight phone call
A dreaded call of truth
A petrified soul in me
Pounding migraine
Overflowing thoughts
An almost dead body and soul

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I hate it. I hate it when you can destroy me with such petty things, such petty actions. I hate myself, I hate myself more and more each passing day. Destroying myself in the process. Losing faith, losing hope.

The joy that I so cultivated with such hardship is often destroyed when I could see the light starting to shine dimly and the end of the tunnel. A tunnel that I’m not even sure I’m supposed to be in, let alone travel to the end of it.

In the storm of nature, which I would choose to be at this very moment, not wishing to come back to the calm land of the known. A brutal storm my take me away or may be keep me from coming back to destruction that is counting down day by day.

For the destruction that out weighs the joy that I could cultivate, I feel like is giving up on me. Or may be I’m giving up on myself, or life itself.

Well I will retire here… at this point. And well I won’t be reachable on whatever means of communication for I have opted to deactivate them.

No worries though dear…
Many many hugs dear…
*smile*

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I’m really tired
Seriously
I’m dead tired, really I am
I hear words
Conversations
Dead silence
I hate silence
I need silence
I just need sleep
I’m going to bed now
No dreams please!!!

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Now remember I was telling about my aquaplane or under steer experience 2 weeks ago, today I kind of saw how I would have ended up if I did not pull through the corner.

I was driving back from work today and as usual I reached the traffic light turning into my housing area. The traffic was slow and I slowed down too. As I approach the turn I caught a glimpse of a silver car and a yellow car, roughly near where I skidded the last time. As I passed by, I saw a young lady alighting from the silver car and a middle aged lady from the yellow car.

Basically there was a collision where the silver car knocked the yellow car. I could see the silver car’s left front wheel crashed into the side concrete. What surprised me more was the yellow car. There was only one wheel left touching the tar road. Most of the car body and the other wheels where actually on the concrete base lifted from the road

I do not know what exactly happened, but this is what I could think of. The yellow car made a turn and the silver car was right behind, but somehow knocked the yellow car, sending it to fly up on the concrete base. To my glance I believe that no one was hurt in that incident, and I am grateful for that.

Come to think of it, I could have ended up there myself if I was not lucky enough as that car was mere inches of my back when I suddenly managed to pull of from that concrete base. Well I was lucky but the two earlier today was not so. Any how I am still glad that no life was hurt nor taken away as there were young children in the yellow car.

I guess we can never be too careful when driving, even myself. I’m just glad I was ok and everything and everyone around me is ok. Even you my friend, every one of you. May you all be safe, happy and live life to the fullest and hopefully I can join in the fun too.

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“LeAnn Rimes – Please Remember Me (WTC & Pentagon Tribute)”

I remembered today, 5 years back. I was jobless and I was lazing back home still waiting to be employed. It was not fun to be staying home for 3 months without any income. I had to basically live off my previous pay which funded for my convocation in USM Penang at the same time. I was basically running dry.

It was on this day too that I saw and heard something disturbing. The September 11 incident, the incident that caused 2 massive building called the World Trade Center collapsed to the ground. Many lost their lives that day, more lost relatives and friends.

I still do not understand how life can be just taken like that. Isn’t life worth so much more than that? Even up to today there are still so many incidents and events of war, terrorists, bombings and may be some that I might not even know of. It’s bad enough that we had a few natural calamities that had claims so many lives and we just had to create more live taking situations with war and terrorists. When will we learn?

I am trying everyday if possible to try to do a good deed and I know it’s just a little thing. Trying to make life better for those around me directly and indirectly in hopes that peace and love will prevail everyday. It’s enough to just see a smile and laugh, the feeling inside is exhilarating. I know I am not a saint, but I try very hard in hopes to see a better tomorrow, be it I may be around or not.

Peace and Love
All around the world
Reaches far beyond the horizon
Across the Milky Way
To all
Even extraterrestrials

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Before proceeding, know that Lacuna Coil is a gothic metal band and their songs are of the metal genre. Please refrain from listening to the song if you are not into metal music, else you may proceed

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Song – Angel’s Punishment
Artist – Lacuna Coil

Destruction

War

To fight in defence
Forgotten words
of friendly hate

war - destruction
war - destruction

I don’t know why
A soul deceased
A broken hope
A choking breeze

war - destruction
war - destruction

Can’t you take me away from your lies?
Can’t you take me away from your lies?

Destruction

Dark paradise
Collecting souls
To analyze

war - destruction
war - destruction

The bitter blood
of a children’s cry
inside the truth
far from my sky

war - destruction
war - destruction

Can’t you take me away from your lies?
Can’t you take me away from your lies?

As I said earlier, this is the song “Angel’s Punishment”… Nothing to do with sweet angel by the way. Any way would like to take this opportunity to say happy holiday in London to angel and don’t forget my Manhattan Fish and chips.

A very simple word, “war”, creates so much devastation. There is war as in war of the world, but there is another war that we fight daily in our lives. Sometimes just a simple word could cause so much suffering, not only to oneself, but to so many others.

Just a simple word
Could cause so much devastation
War means destruction
No matter a war in reality
No matter a war between countries
No matter a war between individuals
The feeling of destruction
Is too much to bear
For an anyone
But we have to be strong
To fight everyday
For the victory
Of ourselves

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