Impact Of A Soul To A Soul From A Soul

Just something I started last year. They look deformed from their full size scale figure, but I think they are cute!

Now I need to sleep! I have not been able to sleep for days and may be weeks. Trying to release stress, but not really working. Believe me, unnecessary stress kills a lot of things, both mentally and physically.

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I went drive thru style just now for dinner. It was still drizzling lightly and there were a few cars in front of me. As I was waiting to order, I caught a few teenagers playing as it drizzled on. Two of them had in their hand the day to day grocery store red plastic bags. In the plastic bags, it was filled with a white powdery substance. I immediately recognized it, the smooth powder, it was flour.

They were playing with flour, tossing and throwing hands full of flour at each other. I smiled. I tried to recall those moments when I laughed my heart out, almost feeling a heart attack was coming on next. Now I think, at least some of the kids nowadays are doing some of the things we did before.

I read bout the future installed for some of the kids today in tihtahpah’s place and now I can say, there are still some future in them that we had previously. I guess not all of them are confined and there are still some that are enjoying the way we did and imagined it would be lost to them.

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As I am typing this one, I am watching the live earth concerts around the world in Australia, Shanghai, Germany and Japan. I know, I may well be the last one to know and talk bout this but hey, let’s answer the call.

Anyway, you can get more information from this site http://www.liveearth.msn.com/ and you can even watch the concert like I do, though it’s a little delayed telecast, but what else can you ask for.

Now let’s enjoy and think of how we can save the earth. And this time I will finally get to see Eskimo Joe, yes Cynthia, Eskimo Joe. Will be back later and Pelf, will reply to you soon.

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I’m heading for a very hectic day today. I’ve set up three meetings today, just in the morning, back to back. Time is pressing hard on me. Decisions need to be made and discussions need to be carried out. And not to forget work has to be too at the same time. My calendar seems to be full most of the time now, sometimes even weekends.

Today is the mid autumn festival, I do crave for a chang, but what I want more is to spend time with my family, with mum and dad. I’ve not been a good child, for I was not around last weekend for father’s day as I was off for an even in Genting Awana. Today will be sort of like a replacement celebration. I need to spend more time with them.

I hope I will be able to leave early today to beat the jam. Let’s hope things does not go against me in my meetings and especially the traffic tonight.

Happy father’s day dad.

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I just came back from dinner just now. I guess I can say a lot of things bout mother’s day and my mum, but I will not, for I think it’s not needed.

I guess I have not words but these three words…

I love you mum

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You Are 84% Peaceful

You are the epitome of inner peace and total calm.You are grounded, emotionally mature, and very wise. While no one’s life is perfect, you have a great amount of perspective on the world - and you place in it.

How Peaceful Are You?

Do you think I am such a peaceful person?
How Peaceful are you?

May peace be with all of you out there and have a great weekend
Peace

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I guess a man really can make a difference

The first thing you have to learn is to forgive yourself

Who are you?
I don’t know

Have you guessed where these came from?
How do you think they fit in our life, your life?

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Song – I Hate Myself For Loving You
Artists – Joan Jett

Midnight getting uptight where are you
You said you’d meet me now it’s quarter to two
I know I’m hanging but I’m still wanting you

Hey Jack It’s a fact they’re talking in town
I turn my back and you’re messing around
I’m not really jealous don’t like looking like a clown

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart and you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can’t break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that’s why
I hate myself for loving you

Daylight spent the night without you
But I’ve been dreaming bout the loving you do
I won’t be as angry bout the hell you put me through

Hey man betcha you can treat me right
You just don’t know what you was missing last night
I wanna see you begging say forget it just for spite

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can’t break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you, that’s why
I hate myself for loving you

I think of you every night and day
You took my heart then you took my pride away

I hate myself for loving you
Can’t break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that’s why
I hate myself for loving you

I hate myself for loving you
Can’t break free from the things that you do
I wanna walk but I run back to you that’s why
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you
I hate myself for loving you

This song is a little bit rock and heavy but quite energizing. The words are not alien, though whichever way it may go and turn. I have been annoying or annoyed or whatever it is. I just did not feel right with a lot of things and people of late, for whatever reason that I could not think of as well.

Yes, it’s stupid, and for someone who believes in smiling to everyone to make everyone happy. I’m failing in a lot of things that I believe in. to instill faith and believe we have to believe and have faith. To give care and happiness we must be happy and caring. I seem to be losing all these qualities or seems wanting to lose it.

Damn, I hate myself!!!

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The Qing Ming festival is a yearly event, as I described before. Well, what I want to tell today is something I truly feel strongly, but I could never do it to perfection. I am a person that deals fairly well with death and such, that is I do not go all berserk and asks you to stop talking bout it. To me, it will come either sooner or later, but which I doubt I can take it this easily too when it comes.

We bought a couple’s Urn place for my parents, near to our grandparents so our parents will be able to rest with them at least at the same location, which is Nirvana. In the process of all these, we were taken to the many expensive lands which was bought and duly renovated. They cost more than a detached house in town, I would say, in terms of millions. What caught my attention is something else, a guy, in his twenties and furthest would be just below thirty.

He goes to Nirvana Memorial park as often as twice a week or more regular, I can’t really remember. Some may say he is crazy going to the cemetery so often. He visits his girlfriend, which he bought an urn place for in the same room where my grandparents and eventually my parents will be. Accordingly, he lost his girlfriend to cancer and since then, he has been there very often, going to the cemetery, just chatting with her.

I imagined him, to have care for her and love her so very much. Which is what we should all do? We should learn to love and care for them when they are around, not when they are not. And even when it comes to that, we do it once a year, in the Chinese community.

I believe that many have lost the tradition as they just do as they are told without knowing the meaning of it, especially the younger generations, me included. I often wonder, why can’t we do it anytime we want to, as many times as we want to? Why do we need to wait till the season to do it?

I salute the guy, for his love, and envy his girlfriend. I wonder how many can even come close to him.

How strong is your heart?
How strong is your love?
How strong are you?

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It was a Sunday. It’s an annual event with some arguments and stuffs like that the day or days before but it will all fade on the day itself. We normally make our journey in the late morning, but this year was bout noon. I, as always will drive, as with almost all family occasions.

The drive to Nirvana Memorial in Semenyih jam packed with cars as this is the season to visit those departed. It took quite some time to get there and perform the age old traditions in a more modernized way.

We used to tread along the sides of the hill, up and down and around graves just to get to my grandparent’s graves. Those were the time, distant memories. This year, somehow I felt different, may be I was different. I just did not felt myself starting the day before until it all ended.

During my visit, I could see some were actually having a picnic there. There was food enough to keep a family of 5 from hunger free for a week or two. However said that, it seemed that the cemetery no longer posed the eerie feelings, even children.

I noticed this girl in her teens, wearing dark blue jeans, which has beads sewn to its back pockets, with a white tee and an Adidas white cap. She was caught my attention in particular, but I do not really know why. She had thick lips, and her long hair pony tailed from the cap. Reminds me of myself when I used to do that too. Along side her there was a twin sister and also a younger sister.

The ordeal was not so bad, apart from a fool whom set an innocent tree on fire and fled pretending nothing happened, as well as inconsiderate and illiterate idiots that brought and lighted fire crackers when it is clearly informed not only by the government as well as the management with big banners to not do it. I know it’s tradition, but then we still can live without it, and especially without summons and jail terms if caught or injuries or death.

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