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June
9th 2008
Setting And Rising Sun
Expressed by zeroimpact on Monday, 9th June, 2008, 160, 24 at 01:35:59 316

Posted under Life & Me & My Thoughts & Photography

How do you differentiate the sun setting and rising?
Is there always a definite answer?
I certainly have no definite answer…

Does every sunrise marks the beginning and the sunset marks the end? This is somewhat true when you look at it objectively but however how do you be certain it is a sunrise or a sunset. I believe on the individual will know… in due time.

The road ahead seems to be lighted up by the golden rays of the sun… be it sunrise or sunset. The sight is beautiful and awing. It was definitely beauty that my brain could translate via the beams of light hitting my retina.

These are some of the recorded images during those beautiful hours…

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June
6th 2008
20080606 Tendered Again
Expressed by zeroimpact on Friday, 6th June, 2008, 157, 23 at 16:46:39 949

Posted under Life & Me & My Thoughts & Work

I waited and waited and then after our discussion on some stuff… I handed it over to her. She smiled and expressed mild unexpected feelings. I’m not sure if it was genuine or a show. However I was a tad disappointed, or rather not what I would have expected from her and him.

I still remember my previous senior manager’s expression as he knew he was losing a good staff, one that helped him managed many happy VIPs. Having said that, my last employment was more modest and peaceful rather than the current affair of hot and cold war.

So it’s time to move on again. Time for a new horizon of unknown and finding out if the green grass over the fence is bitter and sour or sweet like honey. Thinking about leaving the company in 24 hours seems so tempting but it will not look good on humane perspective, therefore I will still need to check with HR on this matter of how it will be.

Well, all the best to me… and hope things does not repeat again. Though I would curse them every day, but when today came, that feeling sort of faded away totally. May be I’m a softy. May be I’m not bold enough to spit in their face and let them rot in hell.

I don’t believe in letting them slap me on the right after they slapped me on the left, but however I do know not to do things that you do not want others do to you even though how much of a donkey ass you are. With that said, I shall be leaving the company with good terms.

There was a proposition given to me where if money is the main purpose as every bloody thing is going to be so expensive soon, they are willing to work out something for me. Money plays a great role in my decision but I don’t know, do you think if they are willing to pay me more, I should stay? They are waiting for my decision that if money can hold my horses… then they are willing to work out something.

I don’t know
I’m starting to get confused
What should I do

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June
5th 2008
School Uniform And Home Education With Petrol
Expressed by zeroimpact on Thursday, 5th June, 2008, 156, 23 at 13:38:09 818

Posted under Anger & Everyday Life & Me & My Thoughts

Read this… http://blog.thestar.com.my/permalink.asp?id=14505

What the heck, I know I may be infringing rights here but here is the whole entry…

Thursday, May 29, 2008

School Uniform Is NOT the Reason

Posted by: Fahmi05

As a teacher, I have to disagree with the statement on the school uniforms being the cause for immoral acts of boys.  UTTER NONSENSE!!! 

Look around you and examine the current social situation in our country.  How the girls dress outside school hours is umpteen times more sexy and revealing than their school uniform.  In fact, when I was in school we were still wearing pinafore (which are actually less revealing than the baju kurung.  The baju kurung was only making its appearence as a school uniform then.  From then until now, it had never been made into an issue.  This is because it is a NON-issue.

BE REALISTIC!!!  Students as young as the age of 8 years old are exposed to all sorts of pornographic material (a fact garnered by primary school teachers), students are influenced by indecent way of dressing particularly from our eastern neighbours (don’t only blame the west for all ill in the nation), and many other woes of the youth today have nothing to do with schools.

Another thing to consider is the moral values of the men / boys said to have turned rapists.  One thing I realise is that the majority of the so-called offenders are MALAYS (I’m a Malay myself but I don’t blind myself to realities of life).  These people do not have strong religious grounding or do not practise the religion as they should.  Why?  It goes back to the family background.  As do most discipline problems in school.  It goes back to their upbringing although we teachers bear the brunt of societies wrath at these students. 

People question what teachers do at school that they cannot mould the students.  GO BACK AND ASK THE PARENTS WHAT THEY HAD BEEN DOING DURING THEIR CHILDREN’S FORMATIVE YEARS (between the ages of 2 and 5 or 6) when most values are instilled.  DON’T blame teachers!!!

What I can say is, well said and totally agreed. What is all this nonsense about school uniform lah, teachers don’t know how to teach lah and all these crap. If you tell me school uniform is the cause then the whole country is full of young rapist, or maybe you are just trying to say that if you go around raping people in school uniform, then you can sue these girls for wearing school uniforms and while you go scot free and continue your raping spree.

Another point that I like which was this writer brought up is family education. What the hell are you concerned about discipline when you freaking let your own child climb all over you, step you on the head and shit in your face. You make up excuses to not teach your child and when teachers do you a big favour by teaching them respect and all other values a human should have… you go and sue them stating they are some lunatic for slapping or caning their child. Another big utter nonsense.

If they were so precious then why not hire your own tutor from overseas or even oxford to teach them. I have been through my years with caning and even public caning which has shaped me and all the people around me. Even those that we top notch thugs in school has become useful souls in the society, but look at what is happening now. Parents sue teachers for disciplining them, child sues parents for slapping them and in the end there are more useless than the worst thugs back then.

Next time think again when you intend to spare the rod… or complaint about a teacher. Think what have you done to not create your own monster than what other have done to your monster. Of coz there are those that still holds the invaluable values that should be instilled in everyone and those are the respected ones.

Big standing ovation for this teacher!!!

Another thing that annoyed me very recently is the petrol price. I’m not talking about the freaking 78 cents rise but the people that queued like hours just waiting for petrol and also those who drive from Kedah to Kelantan just to fill a tank of petrol.

I’m not saying saving is not good, but look at it, the amount of petrol and time you waste while waiting to fill a tank does not justify. You waste time and skipped meals which damage your own body. Your car emits hazardous gas and stuff that endangers everyone in the world. All that for may be RM 56 if you have a 70 liter tank like mine.

The worst is you caused a freaking jam right at the exit of my housing area and almost caused me to be late for my midnight work!!! And believe me the money you earn per hour is definitely more than what you are wasting there waiting and endangering others.

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May
21st 2008
Crack Of Dawn
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 21st May, 2008, 141, 21 at 02:29:16 353

Posted under Me & My Thoughts

Whenever the storm hangs over head
I try to see the light breaking through the clouds
Whenever darkness shrouds my path
I search for the beam seeping through the clouds
When the ray pours down unto my flesh
Warmth blankets my soul with hope
For another day comes by
With hope and serenity
With strength and visibility

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May
16th 2008
I Feel Lousy
Expressed by zeroimpact on Friday, 16th May, 2008, 136, 20 at 00:09:22 256

Posted under Life & Me & My Thoughts

I went to the night market with my mum earlier today. It was like many moons ago that I went out with my mum, well at least to the night market. We went to buy food and also some vegetables. I asked why buy now when we could get it in the morning during the morning market at exactly the same place. I commented was it cheaper during the night market, and the reply was yes.

I know that mum is just trying to save whatever that she can for rainy days. I know it’s a good trait and not wasting is definitely good. However I just can’t help but feel lousy. I feel lousy because I don’t seem to be able to cater for the basic needs, well at least not what I see.

I want to give my parents everything. I want them to be able to eat or even buy anything that they want without thinking so much about the cost and how expensive is it. I want to be able to forget the value of money, leaving that for me to worry.

I know it’s hard because we came from a poor background, struggling day in and day out just to make ends meet, at least my parents and siblings did. I was lucky to be better off than them. I’m still trying very hard to make life easier for them, to earn more so they can live better without worries. I guess I have not been able to do that yet.

Mum, Dad, I’m trying my best to make up whatever that I have done wrong but not with money but my sincerity. My aim is to make sure both of you can live a better after all you have done for us, me and my siblings. I want you to enjoy the rest of the days with us by your side, as a family.

I will make this day come true for you… mum and dad. I’m working hard towards it.

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March
9th 2008
The Voice
Expressed by zeroimpact on Sunday, 9th March, 2008, 68, 10 at 16:58:06 957

Posted under Life & Me & My Thoughts

There are times when we see and keep quiet. There are times when see and voice out. There are also times when we see, voice out and act. This is one of them, we saw, we voiced and we acted.

For those who have casts your votes, congratulations, as you have fulfilled your duty as a citizen and as a righteous human, whichever you voted for. The events of the unravelling of the votes counted yesterday were both exciting as well as a little worrying. The big excitement came when the opposition started to gain a lot of hot seats as well as gaining the seats they needed to construct the state government in the respective states. The worrying came when the opposition are gaining more and more seats at an unpredicted rate.

The big excitement was so intense as unofficial reports that one state by one state is being taken by the opposition and big names has been defeated here and there. The greater comfort came as unofficial reports state that the ruling party is denied of its two third majorities.

Worries came to mind when the heat is uncontrollable as the oppositions keeps gaining seats, defeating many big names in the MCA, MIC and the Gerakan. The worries is not of what the SMS has been sent out but of another worry but that the opposition may still have not the ability to rule and take more than half of the total seats to become the ruling party. However said that, with this win and determination, what the opposition needs now is to show their ability in showing improvements in the states that they will be governing. I believe that if this is done well, they will continue to win more seats in the future unless the ruling party learns how to listen to the nation’s voice and not their tummy or the voice in their tummy.

To have the opposition gaining more than one third of the seats was great as this will ensure all matters are thoroughly looked into and managed wisely especially those dealing with the nation and its citizens. This also means that the transparency of the government might just be achieved. We deserve to know what is happening and also I believe many would like to know how the parliament meetings are being conducted and what are the issues debated during these meetings, in all its details, even video footages.

The future now lies in the elites of the nation who knows what is best as the nation is becoming more and more knowledgeable rather than looking back to the past and feels threatened in any ways. The new generation knows what is right and wrong as well as the truth. The eyes opened, the voices heard and the actions spoke!

To be a part of history, voted, refreshed malasiakini.com every other second and glued to the idiot black box while waiting for the slow announcement of the results is exhilarating. I guess the beers last Friday was an early celebration nonetheless, a celebration to a wiser and better nation, a multiracial nation.

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January
25th 2008
This Case
Expressed by zeroimpact on Friday, 25th January, 2008, 24, 04 at 00:01:10 292

Posted under Life & My Thoughts

Eldest son claims dead father was a Muslim.
This site talks bout it.
The family.
The related.

Now, this does not really sound interesting, but when you read the part that people are just waiting to take the body away to be buried in Muslim style or other styles then the memories start jerking back in.
First was an Indian, now Chinese, next may be still Chinese but then could be Christian, Taoist, Japanese, or whatever. Now don’t get me wrong here, it’s just a matter of mere words and phrases, not stirring up a riot, but just seeing things a little into the future, the very near future, let’s say next week.
I have nothing to say, for my voice is not loud and I have lost my voice for all my yelling goes unheard. However I find some of the following interesting and may be, they could be your voice…

written by datnari, January 21, 2008 | 10:14:39
Here we go again…another dumbf**k body-snatching case by the guardians…err….errr….i mean by the SATANS of islam.

When will they ever learn that religion is a personal thing and not given to the UMNO dogs by Allah?

The oldest brother, being a faggot, wants to inherit all the old man’s assets and estate from the other 8 siblings and as usual islam is a scapegoat that caters for every damn thing out of convenience sake. The eldest faggot brother doesn’t even have the balls to show up for the funeral….tu nah seng!!!

Hope the chinese will rise up and kick the islamic authorities arse all the way to the cemetery.

Alternatively, as i’ve said before, plant some C4 into the old man’s body and let it off when the jakim bastards are about to bury him. At least there will be less bastards in the world. And after that we can see if the so-called authorities have the balls to snatch another body.

written by Sutha, January 21, 2008 | 12:36:47

Where was this reptile all these while? In Seremban, lor. Now living in Phase 7 Taman Bukit Kepayang. He became a muslim as he was working in a malay bank and surrounded by them only.

One sunday morning when we were climbing a nearby hill for exercise, he told me that he converted not because of a woman as commonly the case, but both his wife and he are chinese who decided to take the new faith. And that he had been accepted by his colleagues as a brother.

I said ” Good, just follow your heart”

He said the religion gave him a lot of peace and truth compared to the religion he was born in to. I admitted to him understanding what he meant by peace and also said that I should not be questioning him on how he verified those were truth without cyclically making reference to own books.

“Anyway, good for you and your wife” I told him.

The last straw was when he condemned his former religion (which happens to be mine too) and suggested that I can convert and he could assist. I replied that I was comfortable with Buddhism and there was no need to do so. I also asked if he had read any books on his former religion or talked to any knowlegeable monk and his answer was an unexpected “No”.

Ever since, he passes me by without a smile nor a even “Hi”. That’s this lizard, who had been mentally drilled to put further grief to the widow mother and the family. I cannot tell for sure if his action is for assets, if any, or for gaining credit points to reach his afterlife Paradiseland.

This is the love for parents and siblings of a different faith, as promoted by some weird arab tribal culture. Yet, they say heaven is at the feet of the mother. Niammeh..

written by Bandit, January 21, 2008 | 13:41:47
“It seems that JAKIM/JAIS needs to re-look at it’s database. According to them, everyone is Muslim”
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According to Islam, every human is born a Muslim. Its just that we have strayed and become “unbelievers” because our parents did not practice islam and were unbelievers. Muslims refer to those who accept Islam as “reverts” and not coverts. Is a very chauvinist term. Reading this you will understand what muslims think of non muslims.:-

“Everyone is born a Muslim, whether they are born in a Muslim home or a non-Muslim home.

The souls of every human being are sent to this Earth as Muslims, it is only through the teaching of their families and surrounding that they may choose another religion.

In Islam we are told that children are innocent and not held accountable for their actions all the way up to the age of puberty.

So if they were to God forbid somehow die, they would die as Muslims and be admitted to Paradise.

All of the early Muslims including the companions and wives of the Prophet Mohammed were reverts to Islam.

Even at a later age when a person embraces Islam, all their previous sins are forgiven and for all the good deeds they may have done, each one is multiplied ten folds over and they are given good deeds in its place.

Once a person enters Islam they are like a new born baby, free of all sins. ”

Which means Mother Theresa who spend her whole life helping others has gone to hell because she was a non muslim. Make any sense?

written by Malaysiaputra, January 21, 2008 | 18:13:53
“Hock Sin said it was not possible for his father to have embraced Islam as he had been bedridden for the past two years after suffering a stroke”

So now is this a case of someone being Islamised by “illegal ” proxy ?. Is this how non Muslims who are ill are Islamised ? Is this why there are now more cases of non Muslims deceased being claimed as muslims ?.

If the father had become a Muslim on his own free will, I am very sure that he would have told his beloved wife who is taking care of him, that is if he can talk.

The other matter is that, isn’t the person who embrace Islam suppose to say , if I am not wrong, the Shahadah in the presence of a the Khadi or Imam ? How can this be so for someone who is bedridden without the other family members knowing if the Imam has come to the house ?.

My conclusion is that this eldest son has done some hanky panky with the help of those in the Islamic dept . Is it for the money that a convert is given every month?, is the eldest son taking this money quietly ?.

I told my muslim friends that if I were to convert to Islam because I want to please him and not because I believe in his Allah and his Prophet, then I am very sure that his Allah will reject the conversion as it is hypocrisy.

written by monstercat, January 22, 2008 | 02:27:31
Somebody suggested to video record any conversion by the Islamic dept. Good idea. The dept claimed that they have copies of certificates - that’s not enough. For such a serious matter, they should produce ORIGINALS. Even collecting govt invitation to quote also need to produce ORIGINAL FFO certificates. What about witnesses??? At least four pious and credible witnesses - 2 from the Muslim side and 2 from his previous religion side. Why only Islamic dept investigate? How credible would the result be? The non-Muslims can’t help but be VERY VERY VERY SUSPICIOUS of whatever the dept claims.

From now onwards, anyone of you who knows of anyone terminally ill - please take a video recording (camcorder or handphone) of the ill person declaring that he/she DID NOT convert to Islam! Must at least have 2 recordings!

written by fairnessforall, January 24, 2008 | 14:35:08
Why is bodowi always quiet in these matters. Didn’t he promise to look into it and come up with proper laws for coversion. How can a person convert and still live in a home that cooks pork, has an altar and even eats pork.

Proper coversions should be as follows :-

1. The family, spouse etc should be told directly in writing that the person has requested to covert.
2. A statutory declaration should be printed in the local newspapers.
3. Before conversion all previous relationships ie marriage etc should go though the civil courts to establish proper divorce proceedings and whatever alimony etc.
4. Custody of all children under 18 should be given to the non converting parent unless the non coverting parent has no objection to the coverting parent being given custody and to the coversion of the children.
5. Should the non converting parent not agree to the conversion of the underaged children, the children should remain in the religion they were born in and will be allowed to decide on their own if they wish to convert upon reaching the age of 18 years.
6. All property, assets etc obtained before the conversion should be divided equally and child support should be provided by husband irrespective of the conversion.
7. Once the person is coverted and all the above complied with, he should not be allowed to live in the same house as they maybe eating non halal food, having an altar etc and doing things which are forbidden by islam.

If the above laws are made effective, there will be no more problems where conversions are concerned. The problem is the islamic authorities are stupid dumb jerks who dont even know their own religion. All they want is the numbers, they dont care if the person is really a muslim at heart. The encourage people to lie and cheat their families and they even make it easy for those using islam as a tool to get what they want. Not that these people really care about islam. They only make use of it for their personal benefit, and yet they would not hesitate to stoop so low to cheat and lie.

This is the islam malaysia practices. Shame on all you ulama’s and kadi’s etc. You are a disgrace to your own religion

I don’t know, may be it’s time we have religion courts, each religion their own court, may be then it’ll be called fair and square.

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November
28th 2007
A Farewell To Edward
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 28th November, 2007, 331, 48 at 01:43:44 363

Posted under My Thoughts & Sadness

The message in the mobile tells it all. Never did I think a message would bring so much, so much emotion. I’ve never thought that death would be the message and of a dear ex colleague. I still could not imagine it, as it was like just yesterday that we were working together. No doubt, I’m not a perfect person and I have done my wrongs.

There’s nothing I can say or do that can change anything, but I’d still want to apologize for any wrong doings on my part. You had been a great colleague and a friend to me. You will be remembered by all.

A moment of silence. Edward, a dear colleague and a good friend on his passing on the 25th November 2007.

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November
7th 2007
Dona Nobis Pacem
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 7th November, 2007, 310, 45 at 00:00:56 292

Posted under My Thoughts

Just one word…

Peace!!!

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October
6th 2007
My First Love, Sony Cybershot U10
Expressed by zeroimpact on Saturday, 6th October, 2007, 278, 40 at 13:05:56 795

Posted under Me & My Thoughts

My first love, my first camera. It was the first digital compact camera if not mistaken at that time, more than five years ago, that is if I remember correctly. The compact body host minimum features with only a maximum resolution of 1.3 megapixels.The pleasant and happy affairs I had with it in my hands were incredible. It followed me as I travelled East Malaysia, across all the major cities, capturing moments and memories. It’s an incredible performer, at least to me.

It still accompanies nowadays to gatherings for its compact body and easy to bring out of the bag feature compared to the bigger ones. No doubt there are limitations to what it can do compared to the bigger ones, but still its handiness cannot be touched at least in my stock of cameras.

I guess it will be accompanying me for many more years to come, well, I want it to. It has become part of me, in a way. My Cybershot U10.

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