Archive for the 'Sadness' Category

January
23rd 2008
20080123
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 23rd January, 2008, 22, 04 at 23:59:11 291

Posted under Joy & Life & Me & Sadness

There seems to be nothing in my mind recently, except tiredness, drained and feeling-less. I’m starting to lose my senses as well as myself.

Too many things have been happening out of control. Not one too many or two too many, but simply mountains of too many out of control happenings. Sleep has left me many, many times, rendering this body numb and mind dead.

Time is passing by. I am passing by too. I’m passing through and being passed through at the same time.

I feel a rush of emotion through my body and mind. A blend of the good and the bad.

Life’s fair in a way, I guess, even when we least expected it to or even not expecting it to.

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November
28th 2007
A Farewell To Edward
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 28th November, 2007, 331, 48 at 01:43:44 363

Posted under My Thoughts & Sadness

The message in the mobile tells it all. Never did I think a message would bring so much, so much emotion. I’ve never thought that death would be the message and of a dear ex colleague. I still could not imagine it, as it was like just yesterday that we were working together. No doubt, I’m not a perfect person and I have done my wrongs.

There’s nothing I can say or do that can change anything, but I’d still want to apologize for any wrong doings on my part. You had been a great colleague and a friend to me. You will be remembered by all.

A moment of silence. Edward, a dear colleague and a good friend on his passing on the 25th November 2007.

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August
1st 2007
I Have No Mouth And I Must Scream
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 1st August, 2007, 212, 31 at 23:39:59 236

Posted under Sadness

…Silently…

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July
18th 2007
18072007 Sad
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 18th July, 2007, 198, 29 at 01:46:13 323

Posted under Me & Sadness

I feel like tearing now
Sad sleep tonight
Night

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April
18th 2007
Virginia Tech 17042007
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 18th April, 2007, 107, 16 at 00:45:07 281

Posted under Life & Sadness

Let’s bow down for a moment of silence for the victims of the tragedy.

*bows head*

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March
25th 2007
Shamefully Me
Expressed by zeroimpact on Sunday, 25th March, 2007, 83, 12 at 22:44:58 197

Posted under Me & Sadness

The slightest things pissed me off today, well the evening at least. It’s the first time that I let emotions take over and drove a little out of hand, with my family sitting in it. This has never happened before for I believe in not endangering others.

I’ll remember this day as long as I live and I’m sure I will never be able to forgive myself. It’s my dad’s birthday. How shameful of me. He did not even scold me but advised me.

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March
20th 2007
Nelly Featuring Kelly Rowland – Dilemma
Expressed by zeroimpact on Tuesday, 20th March, 2007, 78, 12 at 13:48:18 825

Posted under Joy & Me & My Thoughts & Sadness & Songs

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Song – Dilemma
Artists – Nelly featuring Kelly Rowland

I love and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do
Need you

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

Uh-uh-uh-uh
I met this chick and she just moved right up the block from me
And she got the hots for me, the finest thing I need to see
But oh, no, no, she got a man and a son, oh-oh, but that’s okay
‘Cause I wait for my cue and just listen, play my position
Like a shortstop, pick up everything mami hittin’
And in no time I better make this friend mine and that’s for sure
‘Cause I-I never been the type to break up a happy home
But there’s something ‘bout baby girl, I just can’t leave her ‘lone
So tell me, ma, what’s it gonna be
She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,” come on

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

Uh-uh-uh-uh
I see a lot in your look and I never say a word
I know how niggas start actin’ trippin’ , and hate up all the girls
And there’s no way Nelly go for it
Ain’t fuckin’ with no dame, as you could see
But I-I like your steeze, your style, your whole demeanor
The way you come through and holler, and swoop me in his two-seater
Now that’s gangsta and I got special ways to thank ya, don’t you forget it
But it ain’t that easy for you to back up and leave him
But you and me we got ties for different reasons
I respect that and right before I turned to leave
She said, “You don’t know what you mean to me,” come on

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

Sing it for me, K
I love and I need you
Nelly, I love you, I do
And it’s more than you’ll ever know
Boy, it’s for sure
You can always count on my love
Forever more, yeah, yeah
East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(‘Cause you don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right
East coast, you’re still shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you’re still swingin’ right

No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
Boy, you know I’m crazy over you
No matter what I do
All I think about is you
Even when I’m with my Boo
You know I’m crazy over you

Yeah, yeah
East coast, I know you’re shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, I see you swingin’ right
East coast, you’re still shakin’ right
Down south, I know you’re bouncin’ right
West coast, I know you’re walkin’ right
(You don’t know what you mean to me)
Midwest, you’re still swingin’ right

This songs brings back a lot of memories, a song that really hit it with most every back then. The catchy ahhh at the start catches the attention and then as the vocal kicks, it just makes and impact with such lyrics to start with. Then as the rap starts, the song just seems to give you a little confusion in genre perspective. This song was really a hit and you can hear it almost anywhere and I really like the catchy music with the ahhhh everywhere and the blend of voices with a change of genre and a nice bass at the background.

It does make me search for a while, replaying some flashback and videos of the past. I’m smiling now as I’m sitting here writing things. Those memories that I still keep in me, replays once in a while unconsciously, out of the blue. I think that is the beauty of it as it comes unannounced, at a random time, out of the blue, just to surprise me with a smile.

Mesmerizing my heart
You gave me life
Losing you and everything
Only permitted and allowed
Vagueness, consuming my soul
Entering my body, scarring my heart
Living off the dreams
In the sea of imaginations
Surrounded by purple lavenders
A fantasy I will always and surely keep

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February
7th 2007
My Words 06022007
Expressed by zeroimpact on Wednesday, 7th February, 2007, 37, 06 at 01:30:44 354

Posted under Fear & Me & Sadness

My whole torso is in pain. The second time that I know of. I think I need to rest. I will honour and remember my words.

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January
21st 2007
Closing The Door
Expressed by zeroimpact on Sunday, 21st January, 2007, 20, 03 at 23:52:42 286

Posted under Joy & Me & My Thoughts & Sadness

The closing of the door
The aching hands and feet
Struggling with all might
Physically and mentally challenged
Slamming of the door
A sound so familiar
Hitting my head
Slowly drifting
Happiness and sorrow
Mixed in the light
What is there in the light?

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January
21st 2007
Chyi – Stories
Expressed by zeroimpact on Sunday, 21st January, 2007, 20, 03 at 11:14:56 760

Posted under Me & My Thoughts & Sadness & Songs

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Original: VIKTOR LAZLO , 1986

Song – Stories
Artist – Chyi

I remember quite clearly now when this story happened.
The autumn leaves were floating and measured down to the ground.
Recovering the lake where we use to swim like children
On the sun would dare to shine
That time, we used to be happy
Well, I thought we were
But the truth was that, you had been longing to leave me
Not daring to tell me
On that precious night watching the lake vaguely conscious
You said: Our story was ending.

Now I’m standing here
No one to wipe away my tears
No one to keep me warm
And no one to walk along with
No one to make me feel
No one to make me whole
OH! What am I to do?
I’m standing here alone
It doesn’t seem so clear to me
What am I supposed to do about
This burning heart of mine
OH! What am I to do?
Or how should I react?
OH! Tell me please!

The rain was killing the last days of summer
You had been killing my last breath of love
Since a long time ago
I still don’t think I am gonna make it through another love story
You took it all away from me
And there I stand, I knew I was gonna be the…
The one left behind.
But still I’m watching the lake vaguely conscious
And I know
My life is ending.

The beautiful voice of Chyi haunts me. When I listened to the cassette that I have of the album, everyone asks me to turn it off. Her voice just haunts when you listen to it in the dead of the night, in the still silence of the night. A song that I love very, very much. A very sad one, however it does make an impact with sure beautiful voice.

In the still of the night
Laughing endlessly
On the beach
Vaguely conscious
Endlessly singing the song
Yelling at the top of my lungs
On my cheek the tears flowed
Unto eternal sorrow in my heart
Keys to my heart
Yielding in your hands
Eternally locking away
Life of this soul
Strangely abiding

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