Impact Of A Soul To A Soul From A Soul

I waited and waited and then after our discussion on some stuff… I handed it over to her. She smiled and expressed mild unexpected feelings. I’m not sure if it was genuine or a show. However I was a tad disappointed, or rather not what I would have expected from her and him.

I still remember my previous senior manager’s expression as he knew he was losing a good staff, one that helped him managed many happy VIPs. Having said that, my last employment was more modest and peaceful rather than the current affair of hot and cold war.

So it’s time to move on again. Time for a new horizon of unknown and finding out if the green grass over the fence is bitter and sour or sweet like honey. Thinking about leaving the company in 24 hours seems so tempting but it will not look good on humane perspective, therefore I will still need to check with HR on this matter of how it will be.

Well, all the best to me… and hope things does not repeat again. Though I would curse them every day, but when today came, that feeling sort of faded away totally. May be I’m a softy. May be I’m not bold enough to spit in their face and let them rot in hell.

I don’t believe in letting them slap me on the right after they slapped me on the left, but however I do know not to do things that you do not want others do to you even though how much of a donkey ass you are. With that said, I shall be leaving the company with good terms.

There was a proposition given to me where if money is the main purpose as every bloody thing is going to be so expensive soon, they are willing to work out something for me. Money plays a great role in my decision but I don’t know, do you think if they are willing to pay me more, I should stay? They are waiting for my decision that if money can hold my horses… then they are willing to work out something.

I don’t know
I’m starting to get confused
What should I do

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I was really, really pissed earlier. I wrote a very destructive post, but then again I decided not to put it here, for the reason that it’s still not time to reveal publicly, in case the wrong eyes lay upon it. I’m pretty much better now, thanks to some chatting and self time off.

Well, all I can stay now it just that people can be pretty selfish and demanding even when they know nothing at all… yes when you say nothing at all. Quite the contrary actually, words spoken or written or typed are still damaging.

Anyway, I feel relaxed when I look at the picture below. It works for me, as the sun was setting by the beach and some people were just there. They made some what good silhouette. Hope you find the same peace of mind with this picture. It was taken in Langkawi some time ago.

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Just something I started last year. They look deformed from their full size scale figure, but I think they are cute!

Now I need to sleep! I have not been able to sleep for days and may be weeks. Trying to release stress, but not really working. Believe me, unnecessary stress kills a lot of things, both mentally and physically.

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The test went well but then some other mushroom bloomed. The fungus is not really an eyesore but then again it does pose barriers.

Have another two days of hell before this comes to an end, if it goes well. Some people are just hard to work with.

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What happened and why did it die?
Everything was tested the day before and working fine
All the effort and time pumped in and this happen at the most crucial stage where it involved the government
Last chance today
Fingers crossed

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I stayed there for 2 nights and well, other than the weather with even the rain, is better than most of the things there. It was a business trip, a seminar which I attended with two other colleagues.

We left for Genting Awana on Friday, after lunch, as there were still things to do in the office before we left. We had a GPS device and it’s kind of a cool device which could tell you the shortest route to any destinations. It even reroutes when you take a different route or if you mistakenly went to the wrong route. Now that is a cool device and when I say it tells you I mean it really speaks to you, not you have to look at it and end up hitting someone’s car from behind. The only downside of this device is that throughout the journey it kept telling me to slow down, I mean what the hell, if it was not a device and proof to have some use, I’d just throw it out of the window, and of course it was not mine too.

The whole journey took a little bit more time that usual as there was a heavy downpour last Friday and I was blinded in seconds when water was splashed over my car. We reached our destination about thirty minutes after three, got our room cards, key cards, and checked in. The first disappointment is that there was no broadband, or even wireless access. Now what is a laptop good for when there is no connection, games and movies, what else.

After the short rest, then we went for buffet dinner, oh did I mention it was all expenses paid. Basically all meals are provided but the main disappointment is, the food was bad, plainly said. The food was not heated right or enough, and well, may be it’s just me and my colleague, we just find the food is not up to standard at all. Basically the meals there were just to fill an empty stomach so it does not growl in the middle of the night or during the presentations.

The second day was filled with presentation and tasteless food. I can tell you that its tiring as the presentation starts from nine in the morning till five in the afternoon and gosh, on a Saturday. Then we have some social time with some of the other participants and from there I got to know more people and also knowledge.

The BBQ dinner after the presentations was slightly better but still bad. The BBQ dinner is actually a Hawaiian style cooking called IMU. They cook all the meat like chicken, beef, mutton, potatoes and other food in a bricked place right by the pool. They constructed a pit underground below this bricked place, where charcoal, rocks and banana stems are located. Another point to note is there is no oil used in this cooking style, NO OIL.

After the dinner, we just left for our rooms and everyone was dead tired. We decided not to take breakfast or participate in the treasure hunt while the others go for golf. Just could not bear eating in that place for another meal, starving sounds better at that time.

We also did not have any luck, there were loads of prizes for lucky draw and stuff but the three of us just don’t have the luck. As for me, I don’t have luck for I have never got anything from lucky draws in seminars.

That concludes my weekend in Genting Awana, a business come relaxing trip, well, sort of. I’m not sure if it’s because of the crowd during the weekend or that is the quality they can come up with, but if you want to starve and relax, I guess this is a good place. So ladies, why go to slimming center and sweet while you can stay here for a week in the chilly air and cool environment.

Yeah I know, I’m crazy, so bite me.

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I’m heading for a very hectic day today. I’ve set up three meetings today, just in the morning, back to back. Time is pressing hard on me. Decisions need to be made and discussions need to be carried out. And not to forget work has to be too at the same time. My calendar seems to be full most of the time now, sometimes even weekends.

Today is the mid autumn festival, I do crave for a chang, but what I want more is to spend time with my family, with mum and dad. I’ve not been a good child, for I was not around last weekend for father’s day as I was off for an even in Genting Awana. Today will be sort of like a replacement celebration. I need to spend more time with them.

I hope I will be able to leave early today to beat the jam. Let’s hope things does not go against me in my meetings and especially the traffic tonight.

Happy father’s day dad.

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Since steed’s resting and still ongoing operation, I had to borrow my brother’s car. Since I’m so used to an auto, a manual proofed to be a little obstacle but not a big one. I guess its just mind over matter and I have been cruising in a manual one for many years before Steed come into my life. I’m counting down the days to see Steed again, and I really can’t wait. It’s just different.

I was having a discussion with a colleague in Starbucks yesterday morning and there was this new drink. The name is Azuki frappuccino, and it’s not bad at all. And another thing I learned today is eating coffee beans. I know you would normally drink coffee and not eat the beans as it is. The barista was kind enough to give us some bean that was ready to be made into coffee. I find it quite nice, though a little bitter but it was like crunchy. I guess there’s a new snack around, coffee beans, especially from Starbucks!

I’m in need of rest and a little time from civilization. I’m spending most of my time in the office now with scheduled and unscheduled meetings and discussions. That leaves me with virtually no time to even touch my phone to make calls or even short messaging. I guess I should not be complaining at all, for it’s better that there’s work than none, though I have to say sorry to the short messages and calls that I could not pick up and answer. I hope situation will get better and I will be able to execute things that I am used to doing sometime before this.

Now, back to my projects, I’ve got a race against time.

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I’m getting old, or forgetful. I am supposed to be going for a week of training out of office and I happily drove to my old office, bought nasi lemak for breakfast and then went back to my office. I did my normal routine stuff like setting up the laptop before I went to eat my breakfast in the pantry before returning back to my place.

The horror came when I suddenly remembered about the training which starts at nine at about eight thirty. Another horror detail is I have no idea how to get to the place. I was supposed to get information on that during the weekend, but I joyfully forgotten about it. However I managed to get to the place safe and sound after an ex colleague guided me roughly how to get there, and surprisingly, there was no jam and I managed to reach in time before it started.

As you read this or well as I’m reading back this one, I’m actually in the office after the training week. It was super connectionless for the only internet access in class I only use for reading some email. And why doesn’t San Francisco Coffee offer free wireless or at least the building offers free wireless connectivity.

Any way, the weekend is here again and here I wish everyone have a great weekend. I’m going off for a Thai dinner buffet tonight which cost only RM 12.90. Will try and see if its worth it. The weekend is full too for me so hope you all enjoy your weekend.

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Oh my, my boss gave me a few pieces of paper today and it read “Performance Appraisal”. Well, at first I thought it’s though yearly or half yearly or quarterly performance reviews so I asked my colleague. It turns out that this is the key to my staying in the company. It’s the end of my probation and this is to gauge how well I have done for, well, the past almost six months. Has it been that long?

I just finished it and well, will hand it in to see how I have been doing.

How time flies

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